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As I’ve been looking back at my trading history, I’m realizing how much I have lost over the three years I’ve been trading.
I started with $1000 in a Scottrade account, and I turned that into $300 through n00b trades, holding on to losers and buying cheap options. I literally knew nothing back then. I refunded and lost a couple hundred more. Then I funded up to $2000 in my Zecco account. Free trades, but PDT rules. I lost a few hundred of that, too. I took a $10k TD account that was only supposed to be safe money (like CD safe) and took it to $9000, refunded to $10k and back to $9000, where it sits now. And you know the story about how I took my $2000 Zecco money to the prop firm, turned it into $2600 and then down to $1200 where I am today, through overtrading, bad discipline and just a really unfortunate situation with BIDU and my order servers shutting down.
Adding it up in my head, after three years of active trading, I’ve lost around $3000. My trading accounts have been around $2000 most of the time that I’ve traded, so I’ve completely blown up 1.5 times so far. People (not on the internets) who know that I “trade” have no idea what my actual performance is, including my wife, sadly. If she did, I’d never trade again! Whether that would be good or bad I’ll leave for you to decide.
Why do I write this?
Part confession–I am Prospectus, and I am a net loser at trading. Honesty on the internet, a cloak in reality. Welcome to my sad world.
Part warning–Trading is NOT easy, and the trading education, especially the self-taught one, does not come fast, easy, or cheap.
Finally, to place these facts in front of me, where I have to face them. It’s so easy to zero the PnL meter and start again. Then being a couple hundred in the hole isn’t so bad. But that meter’s been running the whole time, and financially, as a trader, it would have been better if I had never been born, to use a figure of speech.
What have I gained for my $3000 and three years of effort?
Knowledge of myself–my flaws and weaknesses, but also some strengths.
Some knowledge of the markets, though admittedly I seem to know more about what doesn’t work than what does.
Ability to execute orders along with endless market jargon.
Friends in many traders throughout the world who have offered help and encouragement.
Have I learned how to be a profitable trader? No dice there. In the end, that’s the whole objective of trading, and so far, success has eluded me, or I’ve avoided success, depending on how you look at it.
So there’s a full inventory of where I stand. I’m not going to quit, so the only direction for me is forward.
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